My Why

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Have you ever wondered what stokes a photographer’s passion?  Wonder why they do it?  Well here are a few of MY reasons why..

  1. Photography changes how you see things. I am constantly noticing colors, textures, people, and light in a way most people don’t. It’s a way to capture those things for others to see.

  2. You pay attention. Everything you see is something you can shoot with some creative lighting, or posing. Even the most mundane can become beautiful when you photograph it in a creative way.

  3. It's my creative outlet. Every photo I take I get the chance to put a little bit of who I am into each image.  I particularly love shooting people in a way they don’t see themselves and I can show them a different perspective.

  4. It's a challenge. There is always something new to explore, something new to learn and even and a new way to work with the same subject and create something different! It’s never the same way twice and it never gets boring.

  5. PEOPLE. I love working with people, the connection and friendships I make from a session is something I am grateful for every day.  

 

Every photographer has a different WHY, and this list changes a little bit as I grow and learn and make more connections, but right now, this these are some of my Why’s.

Looking back at 2018

2018, what can I say, it was not quite what I expected but it is what I needed.

It was the year I launched my new website, my new brand, and started taking myself serious. The year I wanted to dedicate to service with my photography. I was blessed with moments of amazing connections and strong women going through so many changes. Women who bravely stepped in front of my lens and came away changed by the experience of my sessions. I started working with Business Branding and expanded into Video production. It was such a full year but it was also the year I had to say no to alot of things and take so much more time for myself to rest more, have more quiet time, and try to get beyond feeling guilty for it all. The truth is this year was a big year for me, celebrating my mid century mark, my first big family trip to Alaska, and fulfilling a dream to attend a Conference by Brooke Shaden. So for 2019, I hope to connect with more amazing people and create some wonderful memories and images while still balancing life. Cheers 2019, I am ready.



Hi, I'm Bobby.

2018 was my year, I turned 50, I went on my first cruise and I attended my first photography conference out of town.. in Joshua Tree California. I loved it. I had the opportunity to shoot a few different models and I met and shot (very briefly) Bobby Jamal Pitts who was modelling with a small group of very talented photogs. They had him posing and moving and covered in fabric and flapping fabric to catch the wind. At one point he was covered head to toe in this white fabric and the wind picked up and took it off his face to reveal this expression of peace and groundedness. So, I screwed up my courage and ran over to ask if I could intrude and take a few shots, I already knew the look I wanted. I wrapped him and asked him to settle into a more feminine expression and pose and this is what we got. I truly wanted to create something different with the image, a feeling of a painting. Hope you enjoy. Please head over to Bobby’s page and check out his other works. IG is https://www.instagram.com/iamjamalpitts

Sad Clown

My dad was an artist. I think I have mentioned it in the past but he was a sketch artist, it was a hobby as a child but when he ‘grew up’ he stopped. I used to always go to him for nice lettering when I had a presentation or a science fair project that needed to look nice with pictures. We never hung any of his stuff on our walls it was saved for the kids things, finger paints and doodles and family portraits, but at my Grandma’s there was a painting of his. It was a painting done on black velvet (it was all the rage back in the 70’s) of a sad clown. It had the most vibrant colors, and he had a HUGE red nose. I used to stare at it when we went to my grandma’s for Christmas dinners with everyone. I was always proud my dad had made it, and I loved staring at it. I was quite young but that memory has stuck with me. It recently popped back up when my girlfriend went out for Halloween as a sad clown (it was epic by the way). As soon as I saw her dressed up like that the memory flooded back of my dad’s work.

So this is a little ‘Hommage’ to my dad, and his art, and the impression it made on me.

This is one of my favorite shoots and I find myself absolutely obsessed with it all. I have since returned to the set and created some mixed media pieces as well. I will make a blog about that in the future. For now enjoy the speed edit.

Fall Fantasy

It’s that time of year, the season’s are changing the leaves are falling and it’s getting dark earlier. I used to live in Ontario where we had a glorious burst of color around end of September into October where everything turned a bright red and yellow. Mornings were amazing with the little bit of mist on the leaves and it made the landscape look like a painting some days and other days it was so magical you swore you saw a unicorn. Out here on the west coast we don’t get quite that punch of color in part it’s cause we have more evergreens here, I don’t let that stop me from creating fall feeling in my work.

I hope you enjoy this fall weather and have a fun Halloween - oh and don’t forget to change you clocks this weekend!.

Lightbulb

In 2017 I joined a FB group called the lightbulb project with Joel Robison where we we would get weekly words to create by. I have been watching other creatives make some amazing pieces and still I sat on my hands never having the nerve to take the ideas in my head and put them out into the world. I am blocked by fear, intimidation, frustration - it never looks as good as in my head, stagnation, judgement and of course my self image issues. I had an aha moment recently when someone said 'just start.. take shit photos and keep doing it until it is better'... I am paraphrasing but that very short few sentences hit me, it released me from my 'I have to be a good photographer' and that pressure of meeting some sort of expectation I think people have of me. My biggest creative and inspirational block ever!! Tonight I just did it, it was not perfect, my tripod broke on my last trip so I had to balance the camera on a stool and my slipper. None of my pretty dresses fit me and I got down about that for a moment, then I got very scared it was going to bomb but I did it anyhow.. I reached for that creative spark and I just started. If you are a creative in this group please let me know, I am always looking for inspiration be it weaving, painting, sketching, poetry (oh yes please tell me if you do spoken poetry) singing, dancing.. I would love to see your works. If you are just a lover of other creatives be there to support them...it's not easy.

I don’t want to tell you what this image is about for me, but if you are inspired please tell me your thoughts.. what do you think it is about?

Trinity

Sometimes it is not what you intend to create but what you need to create to open you up to inner most dialogues and thoughts.  This image was inspired by a creepy image of a hand lit from above with melted wax - the ending seems so far from that. 

So many things go into creating images, from your model to the weather and occasionally what you are reading or which netflix show you watched.  I listen to audio books (alot of audio books) when I go on my walks, and hubby recently introduced me to a new title by Neal Donald Walsh called 'Tomorrow's God' it has clearly had an impact on my inner workings and contemplation.  I found myself saying to my hubby 'I know this will sound weird but I think the purpose of living is to have joy, and that worry is (along with other factors) why I got sick.  The purpose of living it so enjoy life not to be caught up in worry and frustration'  (I had to pick up my hubby off the floor at this point).  So, considering all of that is it a surprise that I created an image that is comming out of the dark, with the trinity (be it subconscious, conscious and super conscious or Father, Son and Spirit)  It is the marrying of the 3 to help lift us out of the struggles.